Chaos In My Head • Book One

Surviving Divorce And Moving Forward

A deeply personal collection of poems exploring heartbreak, loss, self-discovery and the courage required to begin again.

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Sometimes moving forward begins by finally giving every difficult emotion a voice.

About the Book

The Emotions of Divorce. The Work of Moving Forward.

This book explores the wide range of emotions that come with going through a divorce and trying to move forward.

It speaks honestly about the people you thought were your friends, the painful loss of friendships, moments of hopelessness, saying goodbye, learning about yourself and the possibility of new beginnings.

Through personal poetry and reflection, Cristie Schwan captures the chaotic, non-linear experience of leaving an abusive relationship, processing divorce and gradually reclaiming her identity, strength and hope.

Inside the Poetry

Words for What Is Hard to Explain

The collection explores both the visible end of a marriage and the private emotional losses, realizations and breakthroughs that follow.

01

Walking on Eggshells

The confusion, fear and exhaustion of living around toxic or narcissistic behavior.

02

Saying Goodbye

Facing the end of a marriage while confronting uncertainty, loneliness and emotional change.

03

Losing Friendships

The secondary heartbreak of losing people and support systems once believed permanent.

04

Feeling Hopeless

The moments when the future feels unclear and simply making it through the day requires strength.

05

Learning About Yourself

Rediscovering identity, self-love, gratitude and personal strength beyond the relationship.

06

New Beginnings

Recognizing that healing can create space for freedom, hope and an entirely new chapter.

The Emotional Journey

From Chaos To the First New Beginning

The poems move through confusion, grief and secondary loss before turning toward self-awareness, renewed strength and the possibility of starting over. They do not present healing as simple or immediate; they offer an honest record of what it can feel like to keep going.

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1Recognizing the chaos
2Grieving what was lost
3Rediscovering your voice
4Finding strength to move forward
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Meet the Author

Cristie Schwan

Writing became Cristie’s safe place during one of the most difficult chapters of her life. What began as a private way to process heartbreak, divorce and recovery grew into a deeply personal trilogy created to help others feel understood and less alone.

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The Chaos In My Head Trilogy

The Journey Starts Here

Book One • Available Now

Surviving Divorce and Moving Forward

The beginning of Cristie’s journey through heartbreak, divorce, self-discovery and starting over.

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Book Two • Coming 2027

The Healing Continues

Reflecting on trauma, understanding recovery and seeing the first signs of life getting better.

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Book Three • Release TBD

Life Begins

Leaving the old life behind, finding genuine happiness and creating the life she always wanted.

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